Betrayal

Fighting through tears today. I feel like a ragdoll put through the spin cycle. The ex called yesterday realizing he had made the biggest mistake of his life. That he wanted to work it out, go to couples counseling anything. We talked a little, laughed a little. I offered to at least think about it.

We talked again today and I asked him if he'd been with any one else since we broke up. He said no. I admitted that I had. It was after we had broken up and I was single. Yes I moved on fast but it a one nighter. No emotions. He said he could forgive me so we talked more and then hung up.

Five minutes later he calls me and admits he slept with my best friend while we were still working things out. He invited her to his house for drinks and they are using the "we were drunk" excuse.

Is my betrayal just as bad? A nothing one night stand after we broke up?

The worst part is, it's not losing him for good that hurts to bad. It's the loss of a friend. I don't have many to spare and she was my partner in heart break. Experiencing her own five months ago.

I feel dead inside. The love of my life with my best friend. The ultimate betrayal.