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Thursday, May 12, 2011

Hiding

Why is depression such a four letter word? I know of at least ten women who suffer from some sort of depression, anxiety etc. Yet no on talks about it. Why is there no AA type meetings for depression. Hi my name is Littlemissmyway and I'm depressed and I have PTSD. See I can't even use my real name for fear it will hurt future employment or people I know will find out and judge me. I'm a cutter, I'm a crier, I can be anti social one day and the life of the party the next.
Sometimes my depression hides in the corner and sneaks up on me and I'll start to cry because I spilled my water.
I feel completely alone yet I have friends and family supporting me through all of this. I've lost the love of my life because of my depression. I lost my job because of my depression.
I take medication to stabilize me but they don't always work when I want them too.
So when I share it with people I whisper it. Like by whispering it I didn't really say it and can take it back.

I want to be better and I fight it every day. I want my life back, I want my love back. I want ME back.
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  1. LeannaMay 15, 2011 at 9:53 AM

    You are well on your way to becoming the new you...I just know it!
    The reality is that people just don't want to admit to any kind of weakness. The world we live in challenges us to put on our game face every day in every situation and never relinquish control or admit incapability. The sad truth so many miss out on is that the real strength in life comes not only from knowing you can do, but also what you can't.

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